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I know what it feels like when anxiety has you in a grip you can't escape.

I've been there—paralyzed by fear over things I couldn't control. Unable to drive. Unable to leave my house alone. Heart racing. Caught in a grip so tight I couldn't trust myself with my life and couldn't trust God with my future.

The irony? I surrendered my life to Jesus at 12 years old after watching a Christian play at a local church. I thought that one decision meant I was set for life. But surrender isn't a one-time event—it's a posture you return to again and again.

The Redirections I Didn't Want

Surrender became real for me through a series of redirections I didn't want.

I prayed boldly, "Father, make it clear where you want me to go for college." Twelve rejection letters later, I followed His path to Hampton University—not my first choice, but His.

I wanted nothing to do with preaching or teaching His word. The calling terrified me so much I thought of destructive ways to avoid it, to ruin it, to escape what God was asking me to step into.

I pursued a career in the music industry. God led me into television production instead.

I was certain I had the gift of celibacy and would live fully in pursuit of Jesus and my career. Then came the call to be a wife and mother—plans I had to surrender all over again.

And then came the diagnosis that would test everything I thought I knew about surrender.

Breast cancer. The words alone felt like losing control of my own body, my future, my family's stability. I had to make life-altering decisions in a short amount of time—decisions with no guarantees that any of it would lead to the outcome of healing we all hoped for. With the unknown stretched out before me, I had two choices: grip tighter or release.

I chose surrender. Not because I was strong, but because I had nothing left to hold onto. And in that terrifying release, I’m finding safety again—the kind of safety that doesn't depend on outcomes or guarantees, but on trust.

Today, I'm healed of cancer and disabling anxiety, but surrender didn't end there. Every day, I have to choose not to live in fear of recurrence. Every day, I have to release my grip on a future I cannot control. Every day, I return to open hands.

Each time, letting go felt like losing control. But every time, surrender led me to safety.

I can distinctly remember these defining moments where surrender redirected my trajectory. Moments where releasing the grip I thought I had on my life actually gave me the peace I was desperately grasping for.

What I Found Out

Here's what I discovered: there's safety in surrender.

Not the kind of safety that comes from controlling every outcome, but the kind that comes from trusting the One who holds it all. When I finally reached those places of safety in surrender, something shifted. The anxiety that had consumed me, that kept me trapped and isolated, began to lose its power.

And in that freedom, I could finally see beyond myself.

Surrender created space—space to serve.

No longer paralyzed by fear, no longer obsessed with managing my own life, I could actually see the needs of others. Not just see them, but help meet them. Service became my freedom, and that freedom led to generosity.

I learned that through surrender, we learn to trust. And that trust leads us to a life of peace, no matter the circumstance.

Why Oh?

This is why we live with open hands.

Oh! stands for Open Hands—the physical posture of surrender. It's the opposite of white-knuckling your way through life. It's the daily choice to release control, to stop gripping so tightly, and to trust God with what you cannot hold.

Oh! Behind the Seams was born from this journey. Our production company has always carried these values—surrender, service, generosity—and now we're bringing them into wearable form. Every piece we create is a tangible reminder of the posture we're choosing: open hands over clenched fists, trust over anxiety, service over self-obsession, generosity over scarcity.

This is For You

This isn't just our brand story. It's an invitation into yours.

When you wear Oh! Behind the Seams, you're not just wearing streetwear. You're wearing a declaration. A daily reminder. A conversation starter about the life you're choosing to live.

You're saying: I don't have to hold it all together.

You're saying: There's safety in surrender.

You're saying: I choose to stop gripping and start living.

This is for those who find their place in the peace of surrender.

This is for the anxiety-ridden who are tired of trying to control everything. This is for the believers who know there's a better way but need the daily reminder. This is for those ready to release their grip and discover what trust actually feels like.

Surrender is at the heartbeat of Oh! and all that we do.

Stop gripping. Start living. Wear what you are.

Comfort wear for those who trust.